its really weird reading posts from a couple years ago....



apparently i drank alot ha

last post 47 days

let me update

here we go:

-awesome new Bf
-two jobs: time warner , best buy
-blowing money left and right
-the faint/jaguar love on sat in SD at soma yay!!!! dancing my ass off
-Cars broken
-New house which is huge...huge room
-new obsession Peach tea packets you put in water bottles
-eating healthy

Life is going good exceot for the fact that my car is broken and I have to save my hard earned cash for that stupid car then buy shit i want ie: the Wii, dvds, cds, laptop, clothes, tv.....

Thats life I guess...it feels weird to finally have a good job...i hope i dont mess this up.

So my gandmother works at a Marthas Village second hand store so sometimes we get some cool shit...well anyways my sister called me because my grandmother had about 200 vinyl which had some good ones:
to name a few

_three blonde
_Heart
_Journey
_Queen
_John Lennon Yoko Ono
_Pat Benatar
_Grateful Dead

alottt more i was soo happy and ir was for free!!! aww

she also gave me alittle amp which i use to play full blast on my piano in my room...alittle mini concert for myself...richard said its a cheap one but he's the expert


everythings great

love is great

it'll be 3 months this month <3 but it feels longer

i have a few bad habits from my previous relationship so im trying to fix that fast.....i know someones to blame for that... but not me haha of course!!


o and FYI if u call Time warner to yell at the employees be nice cause remember i have all your information right in front of me....haha just kidding


to be continue..............




cramps are spawn of satan

This comes about every other week, but i hate my job...im gonna burn it down...

im soo lazy to look for another job. I love getting drunk and having in depth conversations with random people its the best.....some people are stupid and some have something to say...

Im in love with the alica keys song no one....its soooo pretty and she can sing like no other..



Im really burning out my season 3 of the office ive watched everyone of them about 10 times...


I really wanna start something like a band...and i wanna sing or do anything......i need something to pass the time and i could really do it...i dont have a bad voice.....bolin is suppose to fix my guitar but he hasnt fucker...


Ive been in the mood to watch a movie....Across the Universe comes out friday and i have no idea where its playinggggg loveee the trailer vsooo muchh...


until next time

So i bought the new office season three on tues, and it came with a bobble head dwight(which was way to small) and a Dundie award which ive been wanting for sooooo long.

I just got in a major car accident so ive been sore all over it looks as if a small animal mauled my chest.../and i have no car :0( but this means i get a new one!!!

Ive been laying low lately the beer drinking and partying was getting old and ive been getting alot more hrs so i need to get my sleep...like a nerd ive been doing alot of puzzless but its fun.

until the next time....

Im a nerd i bought firefly box set i really loved the movie ha

i dont care

i think im gonna be fired from my work. but fuck it its not like its a life ambition to work at best buy ha fuckers


lifes been weird as always

story of my life and i can never write when im drunk


im going to watch my show so fuck it

other night I actually stayed home while my friends went to Hollywood. In which I told them not to go because it was a waste. They went to HW for some party.. Ha I laugh at them because they had a bad time the party was over when they got there and they also got lost..Ha in ur face...I so called that.

Today is a new day...I didn’t drink..Ive been drinking everyday and the other night I realized I'm so over that. I need to grow up. Pay my bills go to school be responsible I’m fucking 22 I need to.

I went to Hollywood where all there movies were on sale.. I went crazy I bought seven movies all of them good I watched running with sissors which wasn’t as good as I wanted it to be. But I cried a couple times. Mrs. Henderson Presents was a great movie I LOVEEEE Judi Dench. One of my top five favorite actors. I only got that movie for 2.50 at Hollywood video. I finally got Marie Antoinette which I needed to add my collection. My DVD stand is now too small to fit all my DVDs. Which makes me happy. I want to become rich so I can have a million DVDs and have movie nights at my house.

UCR are accepting late applications and I’m going on the 11th to see if they can get me in. I really hope I do because I've always wanted to go to that school.


Well its 2:25am and I have school at 8am.

Im sitting here at work thinking of how much I hate this place and all the fake people.

Lifes been weird. Drinking alot and doing other things I shouldn't, but I have no self control. I need to really lay low for awhile spend time with the fam and so on.

As much as I try to stay away from drama it follows me around. Im sure everyones always said this but the desert sucks I need to leave ha. Start a new life. But money is always the problem. Always.


I need to find a full time job so I can get caught up on my bills.

I have been catching up on my movie watching. My Mom just buys movies I tell her to buy and she does. Dreamgirls was a great movie that chick from American idol can fucking sing. I also bought History Boys about English boys(fucking hot) studying to get into Cambridge or Oxford. Great movie. also The Good Shepherd was good it dragged alittle but good non the less. I'm actually excited about Spiderman tomorrow were going to the midnight showing and that's always fun. I'm not really fond of the other ones.

You know boys are drama. Mind Games like crazy. Anyway for another night.
I ordered my drum set but canceled it because I have no where to put it. which sucks.

So it looks like I'm going to be leaving to Cal State San Bernardino next year. Which is good. I need to leave this town fer reals. I'm looking into housing for next year which is fun. I'm gonna get a cat.

So my friend alan got bright eyes tickets for may and im soooo going...hes taking me for my bday...i love him



Drinking is fun until the drama comes as always.........


i hate school....my car is broken and my sis takes me but shes not going this week so im am carless :o(

i hate that.......


ill ttyl later im sooo drunk right now haha

COD is having a student film festival......i have this really cool idea...about drugs and drinking and young adults...daniel told me that i shouldnt portray young people like that...but thats the scene down here....people think they need to get messed up to hangout......but im the only one that thinks its cool..haha fuck it ill still do. my production company name shall be tnt flicks(thanks to bolin) who i guess has great editing ablities and knows how to film. we will see. once i get a macbook watch out.

it wouldnt be the same going to bed without watching Jon Stewart and the Colbert report....Colbert report is wayyy more funny than Jon.....but both cracks me up.

i love to sleep but i can never seem to sleep at night. it sucks. im all for sleeping during the day. today after school i took a 4 hr nap.

i need a hair cut so my friend is gonna do it. i hope she knows how. if it gets to messed up i think ill go all scene. haha naw i cant pull that off.

My bday is on the 23rd ill be 22 WTF 22 i feel sooo old. and i dont really feel like doing anything. this one will suck i know. i really want daniel to take me to disneyland but most likely that wont happen.

there are alot of shows coming up and i close all the time at wrk. i hate that. its like they dont want me to have a life.

but i have sf in may to look forward to ashley is graduating and im going up there for four days. thanks to renaldo :0) money is low these days and i couldnt have bought mine now......cant wait.....i wish i was graduating this year but im way behind. i wish i was more motivated about school. thats on my to do list.

So im here bored...I'm so bored ive posted two other journals today.

life has been hectic lately.....idk why everything seems the same.....ive come to not really befriend fake people makes for less drama...people come and go. I wanna go shopping i havent been shopping in forever!! ehhh i hate my life sometimes....money is the root of allll evil. OMG i rented Half Nelson it was a great movie. And i finaly watched science of sleep...i have to say i didnt like it....it was over bearing. Hey i wanted to like it. i heart eternal sunshine. i reallllyyyy wanna go to coachella....so baddddddddddd i want money. story of my life

someone stole my office season 2 at daniels one night when we had people over for my andys bday. i was crying forever. but turns out daniels friend took it by "accident"-- shit list-- im happy it is back....i only got it for like 16 dollars with my discount. when would i get it for that.


I think my car is dying on me :0( but i want a scion soo bad. i love them. something about boxes. haha

i have so much i wanna do.... i wanna start a band make a movie learn to play guitar reallly well. Im learning the drums my friend is teaching me. i've learn the strokes song is this it and apple blossom by the white stripes. My friend let me use his dvd and i loved it. Im really watching meg and how she plays the drums. easy shit. and learn. well i have to study

1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
i dont care.

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
no im way lazy

3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed, would you?
o ya

4. Do you take compliments well?
I do. Makes me feel good.

5. Do you play Sudoku?
wtf is that

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
hell no! I'd die. but i would want to do that swiss famliy robinson shit and built a house

7. Do you like nipple rings?
nah

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
i wish i did

9. What are you listening to right now?
some yeah yeah yeahs song

10. If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was married what would you do?
NO way. Im not like that at all.

11. Do you see yourself married in five years?
Hell no

12. Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?
i have. and it was way hard

13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
i like to be pursued.

14. Use three words to describe yourself at the moment?
full, bored, and crappy

15. Do any songs make you cry?
nope

16. Are you continuing your education?
trying to.

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
yuppers

18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first thing you grabbed?
my famliy and my cell phone. I would try for my dvds but i would have no time

19. Who was the last person you shared a bed with?
daniel

20. Who do you call the most?
my boytoy daniel

21. Favorite children's book?
any goosebump

22. What color are your eyes?
Brown

23. How tall are you?
5'7

24. Do you have a crush on 'Dave the Goofy Professor'?
i cant say so

25. If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?
high school fer sure

26. Any secret admirers?
None that I'm aware of

27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
ya just did.

28. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
fuck that place i hate it

29. Favorite ex?
what

30. Where was the furthest place you traveled?
colorado like 16 hrs in a car

31. How many friends do you have on myspace?
140..

32. Do you like mustard?
alot.

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
sleeppppp all the way

34. Do you look like your mom or dad?
mom love her....dad can suck some dick

35. How long does it take you in the shower?
15 20 mins im always running late somewhere

36. Can you do splits?
i wish.

37. What movie do you want to see right now?
blades of glory :0(

38. What is your ideal vacation?
sleeping haha and im not lying

39. What did you do for New Year's Eve?
hahaha ummmm watching a cool band and then waiting for....

40. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
yuppers hate horror films

41. Do you have a calendar?
o ya. its my life

42. Do you own a camera phone?
yuppers

43. Feather or foam pillow?
anything.

44. Was your mom a cheerleader?
nope

45. What's the last letter of your middle name?
e

46. Why do you do these stupid surveys?
realllllyyy bored

47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
like 6 hrs or 5

48. Do you like care bears?
when i was young

49. What do you buy at the Movies?
popcorn and a drink

50. Do you know how to play poker?
Ya

51.Do you wear your seatbelt?
all the time

52. What do you wear to sleep?
a big shirt

53. Anything big ever happen in your town?
who cares......but coachella

54. Is your hair straight or curly?
both

55. Is your tongue pierced?
it was

56. Do you like Liver and Onions?
nope

57.Have you ever been in love?
o ya

58. Do you like funny or serious people better?
funny people all the way

59. Ever been to L.A.?
o ya

60. Ever been to London?
ooo i wish

61. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
check my phone and the clock

62. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
steal

63. Are you a good driver?
ya i can say i can

64. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
i dont care

65. Are you a gullible person?
omg so much so

66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
nope thats my saying

67. If you could have any job what would it be?
High school US History teacher.(aaron u stole mine)or a movie producer

68. Are you easy to get along with?
o ya people love me. haha

69. What is your favorite time of day?
watching movies

70. Are you a generally happy person?
all the time.

School Sucks as always...i hate everyone sometimes


My job sucks ass I can never get full time with as much ass as I kiss...


thats all for now

The whole month of Dec. I was a mess, but I'm doing way better now. I'm going out having fun meeting people and doing random shit.

I thought it was gonna take longer to get over my ex but I did it in a month. Flirting is key.....it helps.....Im not looking for a boyfriend or anything....fuck that I'm young I and need to have fun....And I hear from friends hes really depressed and its kinda mean but it makes me feel better.....he deserves it......I still think about him but he is dead to me


Also My friends are Drama. Its always something......gay guys are drama queens lol and how am I gonna find a cute boy to make out with when I hangout with gay guys all the time. lol but I love them


I needed a break from that..... I have three shows lined up for the next couple months......set your goals 4sure........Emery and I'm not sure who else I wrote them down....


My job has been cool.....stand around sell a washer here and there..lol


speaking of which i need to take a shower....i really dont wanna go to wrk. My friends are going to LA today too and I'm stuck at work :0(

Im not really feeling xmas this year.....but my mom bought me a DI camera.............i love my mommy

Disregard the last post. Lifes going really well right now. Im done with school for now. My new job is awesome, and the people are really nice there. Real Friendly. The homies and I went to this Indie club on tues. OMG way hot guys the kind I like tattoos and tight pants hmmmmm. Well I do love to dance. I was dancing my ass off, but i wore a sweater and it was way hot.

So bad news.....i didnt pass my math class i took :0( Im taking it again in the spring. I hope the colleges i applied to wont mind. I REALLYYYYYY need to get out of here. Bad memories all around.

I LOVE my friends. When ur broken up with someone all u need are friends and music.

Its sucks cause me and my ex were hanging out EVERYDAY. So its hard to be at home just thinking about things. Im not usually the one to be depressed. I keep telling myself "Im better off". We were going to break up anyways when i leave for school in the fall. Ill find someone with the same goals as I. ANd treat me way better. I did the list of the good things and the bad things. and OMG did it work. I would post it but for the respect of my ex i wont.

On a lighter note. ahah

The xmas show in San Diego was OMG the BESTTTT

WHen will you ever see Taking Back SUnday MCR and AFI!!!!!! in one show
TBS was awesome how i heart them. Im not that into MCR but put on a good show. AND THE Best!!!! for last AFI kicked ass......i thought my voice was gonna go out singing and yellling so much. They are now one of my all time fav. bands
THere DVD came out this week. It was also the other show i went to. great dvd. the extras are the best. Davey gave some insight on what his lyrics mean. I cried a couple of times. I love how songs can say exactly how you feel at that moment.


Movies and Music take me to another place for reals



well i think Ive wrote enough.

life Sucks Right Now. the end

So I quit my job at macys to work at Best Buy. I like it there already. people are nice and what not. Im not sure if my coworkers in my department like me or not. This is a big change because Ive worked at Robinsons May/Macys for three yrs. I really just want to transfer and get school all OVER with.

I wanna see sooooo many movies but with christmas coming up I need to save some money to aleast buy my mom and Daniel something. its the thought that counts right? o well

Im just getting into regina spector and i like her alot. Some of her songs have a jazz or blues tone to it.

Im sooooo bored and dont know what to do. Story of my life.

I hope I do well in my classes this semester. I will be Fucked if i dont. it would hold me back a year.

wish me luck in my classes!

So I went to a show on friday with Alan, Andy, and Bolin. Met up with some friends. It was way fun, and i had never been to a show where everyone is dancing. I LOVED IT, and wanna go 2 more. i laughed ALOT that night. Also it has been a looong time since i went to the glasshouse. Missed it.....one of my favorite bands Emery is going to play there in March and I know no will go with me. Maybe i can force Daniel cause im going with him to a hip hop show. idk so school is going good. Alot better than i thought..........



well good night all!

Once again I suck at school.But thats because I dont go. I have a debate tomorrow and I need 2 study 4 that. So i leave on that note......BYE!!!!!